I can't believe I am caught in a situation again where I don't know what to say and I am unsure of what to do next. I just want the moment to stop but at the same time I want to move on to the next chapter of my life. I am afraid of different reactions of people and at the same time I am kind of aware of what to expect and I feel it's either I am accepting it or I'd rather move away from it. If there is anything here on Earth that I want right now, I just want to be free to go anywhere I want to go. I feel like a prisoner right now.